Author Archives: Megan Carruth

What Is Humility?

Humility is a surrender. Brightness of light and love. Understanding of my place, which is cradled in the cupped palms of acceptance. Peace, serenity, oneness. Acceptance of life, of pain. Fighting creates more of the same.
In hopelessness, is hope.
In doubt, is God.
In sadness, are seeds of joy. 
Darkness gives way to the light. 
May I give way to the light also. 
Humility is the understanding that there is a God, and that I am not it; admittance that my own mechanisms are tried and flawed, that Her ways are real, and pure, and sure.
God, give me humility. Give me the ability to give way to YOUR way. To allow you. To come through me. To not use my own ways. Vanity, pride, sourness, bitterness, depression, isolation, grief, righteousness, self justification, selfishness, doubt, faithlessness, masochism.
Humility: The recognition that an unseen Power is my maker, my creator and my Source Guide, the Power behind all things, the recognition that this Power, my source, is the only true way to meet my needs. And humility is, following this, a vigorous attempt at recognizing and redirecting any endeavor to fulfill my own emotional needs in destructive, counter-productive, inharmonious ways (ways of the self).
When peace is not available to me, I can still ask. I can still try.
Fighting leads me in one direction. Down. Surrender.
Humility requires an admission that of myself, I am nothing. It is a sacrifice of the Self.
As I look for these incorrect behaviors and ideas within me, and as I ask for answers to my questions and solutions to my pain be revealed,  as I look, I must trust. And I must ASK. Ask humbly, and with beautiful defeat to be led.
It takes repeated attempts at character building to grow in my perfect image. But I believe that I am trying, and that God is happy with this, and with me.

Learning the Language of Symbols – A Method for Reading Your Intuition

A few days ago I received a text with one of those little emoji flowers in it. It looked a little bit like a hibiscus. This little hibiscus flower kept appearing in my minds eye over the next few days. Nothing too strange — just like one of those random thoughts that keeps recurring but has no real meaning. But, then, this little hibiscus flower popped into my mind again when I was trying to meditate the next day. That’s when I knew to “bookmark” the hibiscus – usually thoughts that recur more than three times are something for me to pay attention to. Having them appear in meditation is like an extra added “hey! I’m important!”.

Within about the same time period, another mundane subject that had appeared a couple of times was Hawaaii. No real connection to anything or any meaning, just something to notice since it appeared more than once.  This is the first step in reading the language of symbols, my method for collecting intuitive data points. My friend on Facebook, Jenni, had posted some pictures there, and another friend Andrea posted that she and her boyfriend had eloped there.

When more than one data point has clarified itself in my experience, with still no correlation, that’s when I start watching closely. Because I know that sometime soon, one or all of these will start to make some sense. When there are more than two data points, it feels like there’s heightened intuitive activity, and I can probably expect an answer to emerge sometime soon.

OK, so, about this time, just for fun, out of curiosity, I decided to check into the hibiscus flower. “Hibiscus flower meaning” is what I searched in Google. What do you know.. its the state flower of … yep. Hawaaii. Connection drawn.

But the big confirmation that this was something important happened when that very day I was in the nail salon, and playing on the radio was this beautiful music.. When I asked what it was - hahahahaha… the Hawaain station on Pandora :)

So, now I have a SUPER data point. Locked and loaded.. At this stage, I put Hawaaii on hold, and wait. I don’t need to know what it means yet, only that it’s a potential answer for something that will come later. With this in my back pocket, I’ll know how to use it when and if the opportunity presents itself.

For example, it wouldn’t surprise me if in the next few weeks, I was faced with a decision of where to go on vacation. John (my husband) might say, “hey, I found these two great deals for a vacation next month – one to Greece, one is for Hawaaii, which one looks better to you?”, and I’ll already have my answer, because it directly matches one of my “super data points” that I’ve been carrying around in my back pocket.

I haven’t figured out what the statue of limitations on these data points are yet. I think it’s the length of time that I’m able to store and recall them, but I’m still learning how this language of symbols thing works for me.

Sometimes, when data points “seem” really important — they just feel that way– it’s not an answer that I’ll know the question of later, but something that needs attention now. 

Like when a few months ago my eye kept gravitating to Pet Hospital signs on the highway. Kept happening, coincidence after coincidence. If I don’t do anything, the signals get louder. When I pulled a U-turn by pulling into the driveway, unknowingly, to a Pet Hospital, I knew it was a major “pay attention to me” sign. At that point, I hadn’t learned to trust all this the way I’m learning to now, and I didn’t come to understand that this was something I should have looked into until I found out that my cat was on the edge of dying–in renal failure.

Now I know that when there’s a major signal, I should do a quick scan. How could this be useful? Is there a question in my life that this could be an answer to? Maybe I should take my cat to the vet, etc.

So, just to recap, the method is:

1. If something appears more than twice, book mark it – it’s an intuitive data point.
2. If more than one data point emerges within a close time frame, then pay attention! There are two points, an association may be ready to be drawn.
3. Once the association is determined – book mark it! That will usually be the answer when some circumstance arises requiring an answer or decision. Or, if the association is SUPER obvious and strong, actively look into.

It would be cool to know if anyone out there also uses this method, or if it works for anyone else who wants to go out and try it now. Watch for occurrences, associations between them, and where they lead!




Learning Takes Courage, The Pathway to Self


Spiritual learning opens the doorway to true Self.  The only thing “blocking” you from it are the pathways that you avoid. There are always pathways to deeper understanding,  whether traversed, avoided, or unseen. These are the blind spots, the stopping points, the blocks to progress.

In a sense, there are no actual blocks, only self imposed (perceptual) ones. And in another sense, those self imposed blocks are also very “real”, because what we see, feel and experience is our reality. Fundamentally,  though, no blocks exists between you and You – your power. Your deepest. truest You. There is only fog on the windshield.  Continue reading “Learning Takes Courage, The Pathway to Self” »

No Such Thing as A True Story (PART 2): All Beliefs Are Valid

This post is a follow-up to the previous post, which is a reprinting of Pema Chodron’s work.

When it comes to any non-materialist view of reality (i.e., religion, non-religion, spirituality, etc.), it doesn’t matter what other people believe. It only matters what you believe.

These matters of belief are deeply personal, and carry potential for a lot of contention between people (and nations), since conflicting viewpoint can appear to undermine our own belief, i.e., everything we know what it means to be human in this world. But if we make other people wrong, we are making ourselves wrong. Everyone has the right to make meaning how they see fit, and what’s right for one person, may not be right for someone else. Like us, meaning and belief are ours individually, and that’s what makes them inherently relative. Any personal belief which doesn’t first recognize the relative nature of belief and, by extension the inherent value of differing beliefs, only serves to undermine and discount the beauty and greatness which is possible within an infinite vastness of possibilities.  Continue reading “No Such Thing as A True Story (PART 2): All Beliefs Are Valid” »

The Cry of Tolerance: No Such Thing As A True Story

Which way to right belief?The following is an excerpt  from the chapter titled “No Such Thing As a Tru Story”, from author Pema Chodron’s book, “The Wisdom of No Escape”.  I’m republishing it here as a reference for this post  and because I think it is a wonderful parable which beautifully illustrates the subjective nature of reality and the dangers of subscribing to fixed belief system (or, at least, claiming the primacy of one’s own belief system).

Which way to right belief?

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What If I Just Called It Power?

“If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill the Buddha” – Zen Proverb

How I define the concept of a  “Higher Power”, a “God”, a “Universal Intelligence”, etc. is a problem that has troubled me for quite some time. The right definition, one that fits within the confines of my experience, still eludes me. I’m never sure what language to use to describe it. Words seem to fail entirely. But words give character and meaning to concepts, and so choosing the words carefully and experimenting with them helps me to shape my understanding. This writing is an attempt to work this through. It’s a process, and a dizzying one, so, bear with me. But, if you do dig through the dirt with me, I think you’ll find the nuggets are pretty golden. :)  Continue reading “What If I Just Called It Power?” »

Dealing With Obstacles

All month long, I’ve been thinking about obstacles. What they are, what they mean, how to deal with them effectively. “Removing Obstacles” was the subject of a two week Instagram challenge that I’ve been participating in. (Basically, a contest where you post pictures of the daily prescribed asana, along with a caption or brief commentary. Many challenges have a specific theme to write about). Here are a few of my posts that I felt were worth sharing here.

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How We Share Impacts the Whole System 

Modern media has “Mediocrity Disease”. Only we can fix it!

Quick history. Pre-internet, our primary access to media (e.g. news and music) was through a “mainstream”, a stream which consisted of primarily major network broadcasting channels and stations. Then the internet came along, socialized media, gave us free and open access, and disrupted the business models which made the broadcast economy possible. And there are still huge problems to contend with, like fair compensation for artists, and quality and accuracy of modern internet journalism. I think a lot of this boils down to how we share content socially within the fabric of our social networks. Continue reading “How We Share Impacts the Whole System ” »

“Who I Am” Is Enough

‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? ~ Marianne Williamson.

Somewhere along the line, I got the idea that in order to be “good enough” I had to keep myself in line. I grew up, without even knowing it,  a relentless perfectionist. I value quality. I am a “CAN DO” person. I am motivated to fix-change-improve. That is my modus operandi and, in my best moments, it’s a great thing. In it’s positive aspect, it the desire to win is driven by a belief in, and honor for, the infinite potential of human beings. In it’s unbalanced aspect,  it’s a punitive form of flagellation and re-play of conditions that were set long ago.   The “perfectionist” idea is so central to who I am, that it has never even occurred to me there was another way of being… until right now.

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